~ZIONNE~ {it's all or nothing}

About my last night's post...

I'm still bothered.

After talking to my friend, Ann a couple of minutes ago I opened up to her something about my dancing. I told her that I'm not great. And I think she's sorta agree with me, although it's not very clear, but I think she is.

I opened up to her that I really feel that I'm not great at dancing and felt that I need to quit it. I mean dancing was cool, but I think that dancing is really not for me. I love it, but I guess dancing don't love me :(

I'm just a little upset because the talent that God given to me was not "showy", I mean I can't show it every time, unlike singing and dancing, even if you are in just one corner, you can show it, but me? No. I can't. It will just make me laughable when I show it on ordinary times. Call me weird but that's just what I feel.

So for now, it's like whatever, but I think I wanna give up.

Carpe Diem.

Genesis
January 29, 2008

~Salve REGINA~

Dancing or Acting: What?

for the past few days I've been thinking of what I really wanted to do. Can I just stick into my dancing career or forget it and stay in the business that I started in: Acting Business?

You see, I'm currently a member of Trinity Dance Troupe in our school. It was fun because I met a lot of people and make friends. I also gain a little popularity by joining there [:-)], and to sum up all of these, it's really fun learning different moves.

But let's face it. I'm not a good dancer. In the scale of 1-10, I rate myself a 7. Just plain mediocre. Not great or bad. Just OK. Some people said that I'm a good dancer, maybe because I put all of my efforts and energy in dancing-but that's just me, maybe I insert a little paranoia here but, I think of myself as an overrated dancer. I'm not that good nor near great and light years to brilliance-as I said before, I'm just OK. But you see, there's a little improvement in me. In the early days of my dancing life, I only know modern dance, ballroom, basic jazz and some hip-hop. But now, my hip-hop dancing skills are improved (I hope so).

The dance troupe I'm in was cool. There are lots of great dancers that is involved, and it's cool to watch them dance. Sometimes I feel like I wanted to be just like them, but I know my limitations. I can't learn everything. That's LIFE, you can't get everything you want, just like Britney Spears got great looks but she can't have her children.

Acting, on the other hand, was my real passion. I love dancing and that's my 2nd favorite thing to do, but acting was really my cup of tea. I love scripts, I love portraying interesting characters, I love to perform in front of many people. I wanna utter timeless and universal dialogues. I love inspiring people on the characters I portray in the stage or in TV.

I'm a former TV child star, and yes, I'm one of the kids of Batibot and it's spin off, Koko Kwik Kwak. I appear in Batibot only twice but I appear in Koko Kwik Kwak in 10 episodes. It's great remembering those young years, and it was such a great experience.

My career as a stage actor was one of the best years in my life. When I was 8, I was a member of the Theater Ministry in our local church, and we did a lot of stage plays, mostly taken from biblical stories so I portray biblical characters most of the time.

When I was in grade 4, I started to attend acting workshops so I can be a PETA member-the most popular Theater Ensemble in the Philippines. It didn't work out, cause my high school days sneak in, so I need to quit.

Just a few days earlier, maybe because I'm always on a bad mood and depressed in the past few days, I started to think on what I really wanted to do. I thought that I should really stick into my acting career cause that's really for forte and I can say that I'm really great in acting cause a lot of people praises me whenever I act. But I also think that I love dancing, and currently, I'm a dancer.

I sum up all of my thoughts and concluded that:

I've been acting almost all of my entire life. It's not that I need to give up in acting, but I think it's time to focus on something else. I think it's time to, give chance on my dancing. Time to learn something new, something different. A new talent. I can still act while I'm trying out dancing. Because, once you step out of the theater, the show isn't over. There's a bigger theater, a lot more of audience and thousands of lessons that you'll need to learn, a thousands of trials you'll need to face, and a thousands of characters you need to meet and understand.

Carpe Diem.

Genesis
January 28, 2008

~Salve REGINA~